ask me whats bestfriends. ask me when you don't even trust.

ask yourself if you think what you do actually ever concern him
touch your heart and ask yourself what wrong do you have to contact your friends
ask yourself after breaking up for 3 damn months, why are you still so bothered about him
ask yourself am i the only one who knows all these before putting all the blame on me.

the fact that i only said you have been contacting your old friends, is there anything wrong be it who they are.

then ask yourself again, when you have already got nothing to do with each other why still get so affected, why bother if he is paranoid.

i know how that fucking insurance agent concern you and i never spoke a single word about him.
i know that mh and you are just friends, unless you're guilty, but no you haven't told me a single thing. and if you are innocent why be bothered.

if i were you i would just ignore teckhuat cos to me he is none of my concern anymore, he has no rights in my life to comment on what i do.
so ask yourself why are you still bothered? unless you have thoughts of getting back with him which to me it seems that you will never want to.

so, WHY BOTHER?
before you ask me what's bestfriends. ask yourself who is teckhuat to you.

ask why i haven't told you. cos i was damn fucking busy that i din't even have time for my own stuffs and i dont know how in the world to bring it up to you.
if you choose to handle stuffs this why i'm sorry best friends don't exist.

i'm so very, very, very, stressed. probably even beyond that.
Tutorials left untouched.
Lecture notes left in a messed.
Barely even revised.

it's week 4. &i'm going to face a whole week of overwhelming information again.
3 more weeks to MST and time seems to be passing utterly fast. ):

 i believe i lead a more fulfilling life than you.

our friendship ends here. yes right now. hypocrite.

 this is how you fking repay someone, you fking ingrate. stop running to me for help when you have unprotected SI. you want contra go to the doctor bitch. fk you fker. better not turn back to me when your XO leaves you just like the previous. fkugetlost. fkoffmofo. bai.

 i am happy being back in school after 1 whole year of attachment at national heart centre. till now, at least. (: i love drawing blood. i know this sounds sick. but being able to draw blood for difficult patients gives me a great sense of satisfaction.

had a FBC test  this afternoon during practical and i happened to be anaemic. which i guess it's because i've been donating blood. looking forward to basic pathology though i don't really like the lecturer. i loving my course a lot though i've always been ranting that i would have fared better if i have entered JC. 9 points i could've gone anywhere, but apart from the disappointment i'm getting from my grades i guess it is the best course i could've ever been to. counting down 4 months to grad. ^^

i think this dumb blog is rather lack of content. haa. apparently readers aren't interested with too civilized bloggers. they have to be entertained with stabbings and hot topics bout others.

school started. as i have pretty looked forward to it i think i shall spend this final semester as enjoyable as possible. although getting on my nerves is almost unlikely. this very lecturer got on my nerves. he irks me with the way he describes himself all the time. trying too hard to be funny but in the end no one was entertained. he is always wearing tops that seem to be on its verge of tearing apart any second and worse of jeans that flaunts his bulge. like hey i have a huge one down there. he has been trying to hard to be special and apparently things didn't go his way. oh i love sophisticated things like mac. that is why i'm not using the usual blackboard to post my materials. i prefer wordpress and it allows me to express myself. oh dear oh dear. utterly vain.

like what gen says, we'll just do it his way and let his head becomes bigger and on the last day when we grad we'll just prick it with a needle. but well, who knows he may just turn around and smile at you. duh.

as i say, lj is for ranting and tumblr's for happiness (:
till then.

 can someone teach me how to not turn back. how not to be soft-hearted. so i wouldn't be in tears time and time again. yea i'm ridiculous.

 overtaxed for the past 2 weeks. working as a facilitator really killed me. waking up at 5am has never been a habit since sec 3. yet i did that for the past 2 weeks just to go down to hougang and yishun for some fac job. it's not fun. and worse i've been sick which added on the the fact that i am already very exhausted. i fell asleep the moment i reached home every single day.

it's been a fun-filled job though. made new friends and all. having p6s who simple cannot answer what's 3/4 plus 3/4. and a humorous teacher who told me it was 2 1/2. followed by being bombarded with dumb questions by 4 kids at one time. questions like will i get into coma if i dont eat breakfast. why did my mum quit smoking. i thought running was easy but why do marathoners look so tired. is soccer really that tiring. oh and when i asked him have you tried playing a game of soccer his answer to me was no.

i'm flying off to thailand on monday morning and yet i havent packed anything.

 had abseiling on saturday, but i ended up with some stupid food poisoning prolly thanks to the delifrance breakfast i ate which sent me rushing to the toilet 6 times. what's worse? i felt all achy and feverish and went to sleep having to wake up the next morning down with flu. been feeling downright lethargic since then. ):

 i am feeling downright empty. 

 what's all these. my weekends have been spent like 24hours a day isn't enough. first i had a saturday with MM at ion early in the morning then at the army open house for the whole afternoon, and the next thing i knew i was rushing to OG. for no good reason. i finally got home at 12. and i didn't even get to sleep because i had to wake up at 7am to get breakfast for my family, and then i have to reach the zoo to go on a zoo outing with 18 other people from my family. &i had my next saturday i had to travel down to BBDC with R just to accompany her for the registration and then to my grandmother house for a few hours then i had to rush down to my uncle's house for some gathering. and i actually reached home around 1am. and apparently i woke up today at 8am to get to the temple and then rushed to comex to get a laptop for my brother then rushed to work. i cant exactly imagine how all these can last, i might just die rushing. -.- absielling course on the coming saturday, looking forward but another packed weekend again.

 i finally moved my study table back into my room. -.-

 i am never going to give out flyers, ever again. first, i totally cannot imagine how can anyone stand on the same spot for more than an hour giving out dumb flyers. okay i actually stood on the same spot and successful spent 2 whole hours giving out flyers. that is totally NOT me. second, i hate giving out flyers, it's as good as killing more trees, with me as a medium. save the trees, save the environment, people. don't ask why i took up the job. i forgot to ask about the jobscope before taking it up. my wrong. ):

 it's been a week since the start of my semester break. i've been trying so hard to find a job. apparently i dint recieve much good news. good news is that more night jobs in the clinic which wasnt really my intentions and now i spend every morning at home decomposing. the only thing i could look forward to is a tentative trip to bkk before vacation ends. hope it goes well and would become un-tentative instead. (:

 haha!
okay and it continues...
HAHA

 i finally got my birthday photos, yes finally. the best part was it was in a folder named stupid ong 240409, thanks R. i know you love me.

high tea-ed this morning and ikea-ed in the afternoon. i totally forgot the fact that it is sunday already. not until i recieved at phone call with jiaying screaming at me. the next thing i knew i was already on the car rushing back to work.

it's 23rd august and it's a sunday. wake up, cindy.

 i'm burnt burnt burnt once again. (: went sentosa yesterday and doubled it with a kayaking session this morning. owns!
just dyed my hair 2 hours ago. a not very ash brown brown eh. disappointed.

 apparently i got hooked to some dumb slogan site. 

okay last paper down and it's officially my vacation before my last semester commence. i am really looking forward to enter a local u. if i could. barbeque session with my mateys tomorrow. ahoy mateys lets befriend ye sun. duh.

okay. cindy wants to get out of the bloody house with some good o'mateys and have many many pictures taken. (:

till then. 
ohyea btw, Up is a real good movie to catch.